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Hi everyone!!I miss you and blogging terribly and wanted to give you a quick update on what's been going on with me.When it comes to blogging...I tend to have nothing to type about but the truth is MY Life has been a roller-coaster up to now,the twists and turns,the ups and downs and eventually the stop at the end.hahahaha.First and foremost,I don't really understand why so many people actually take facebook and blogs stuff so seriously.come on!can't a girl just have some fun and freedom on watever crap she wants to spill?GEeesh!
Yea the truth is I'm a rebellious lil brat.I do not follow rules and regulations.I rather do things my own way.I hate people bossing me around and telling me what's right or wrong.So just shut the fuck up and do your own thing and let me do mine.This way...both parties are happy.I will never get a job well done when you ask me to,instead if you don't tell me/order me to do it....I will secretly do the job till it's perfectt!weird rite?thatz just plain old me.I love making my parents angry so I purposely/unintentionally do the things they hate and do the things they love me to do behind their backs.I'm sucha freak but wat the hell.I hate people who brags about how good and how great they are.Wtf lar.who the hell are you to judge your ownself lar?I am just talking in general and NOt actually directing this to anyone so pls don't be an asshole and take blogging so seriously.That's why I hate blogging stuff cuz PEOPLE just take things so seriously.if you are a control freak,I begged you to stop that shit cuz you are just making yourself look like a fifty year old person!Omg yes I don't usually talk that much shit but this crap has been inside me for a long period of time.juz gotta let it go!I usually sit alone at the corner,juz observing the crowd and I just hate girls/guys who walks and gang up in a group and can't stop bad mouthing people's stuff.Girls who blocks the effin toilet mirror just to fix their make up simply gets on my nerve too!And I hate ppl asking me about my stuff or wateva I'm up to cuz dammit can't you just mind your own blardy business???yes I'm a LONER by choice and I hate crowds or People hanging onto me cuz it gets on my blardy damn nerve but i never show it out.When I don't speak to you...you better get miles away from me or else....I'll make a voodoo doll of YOU out of garbage and sand and rusting needles poking thru ur throat.

I'm the NEW kid & I'm renovating my life.

This has been a seriously LONG week.

I woke up this morning and all I could think was WOW....I'm so incredibly grateful for this brilliant,beautiful life that I live in.

Lately,I've been running my mind into the ground,

overly exhausted and mentally strained....

I haven't had the time to just BREATHE,

or enjoy all of the incredible things that are right at my fingertips.

I'm hardly inspired to blog.

This past week,I was tested- hardcore.tested.

So.I want nice things.There....I said it.
I want to be able to buy unnecessary items like men's trimmer,

and Gingerbread shaped baking tins.

But more importantly,I want to be able to LIVE.

Live my life,cross off lists,live bountifully not BLEAKLY.

So,let me sum up the awesomeness:

I'm back-eight pounds bigger,

more hot-headed than ever

&

Burning up,anger and fire coming out of my nose.

I'm in a world of pure imagination

&

being alone is the best way to be.

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Life isn't cereal.It's not that simple.

WHAT TO DO DO WITH MYSELF,ISN'T CEREAL.

We don't always know.We don't have "that GUT instinct.

"Our heart doesn't always "guide our way."
It is possible to have the answer and the question,

the yes and the no,existing as one.Conflicted much?

Yes.

..........More stories to come later.

Hi Sunday,I've never been so happy to see you.Let's make out.

I just wanted to take time and apologize to all of you for the long silence.I have been studying hard.I haven't posted anything for quite a long time now and I am really sorry about that.There are few things I needed to sort out and quite frankly updating my blog was the last thing in mind.Time flies when,well,you've been going through a lot.


note:GLEE!If you're not watching,you should.It's one of the smartest scripts on television.
You should watch for Sue Sylvester's one liners alone.

I will try to be here more often,and keep you posted on my daily NOT SO COOL AND RATHER BORING activities.

xoxo,

renee (:

i miss u

I’m really at a loss as to what I should be doing,perhaps because my mind is clouded by emotion.

patience is the key to every woman's heart ^^

you would sit for hours....patiently waiting for me,without making one single complaint.....is enuff to melt my heart to stone.I've never come across before such person like you before darl.I will miss your company : * (
I would miss your love,laughter,humor,jokes,motivation,inspiration and etc....I wish you could be here for me and I wish I could be there for you too....however,place and time is not on our side:(

Thanks for the craziness!!

Tomorrow will probably be my last time seeing you before u depart frm m'sia.Arghhh gonna miss u so very much!!!basically sayang....I'm so blessed n thankful for all the time spent with you and for all the pampering that you've given to me.Thanks for everything from the biggest to the tiniest sacrifice (: Thanks for cycling and running miles for me!you would cycle all the way to my house just to have a glance or two at me!tho you are physically,mentally & emotionally exhausted from your head to your teeny weeny toes but you're stil standing so strong as a person.Thanks for all the useful advice and guidance that you've shown me.Thanks for the chaos *in a good way*.Thanks for feeding me such awesome food and thanks for gaining my weight another extra 15 pounds =) thanks for everything la sayang.

I'm gonna miss you so very much!

the days when we were separated a THOUSAND miles away seems to pass by very slowly and I remember those days where I would slash off every single day in my calendar......hoping the day where you were able to return home gets closer and closer!!The time spent with you right now is just so limited and there's so many things I wish I can do with you before you go abroad for another year again.However,time is not on our side since you'll be leaving M'sia next week =......( Time seems to be going faster when you're around me and that's sickening because as everyday that passes by,I knew the day where you have to leave m'sia was approaching.For the past one month and a half time spent with you,I've gained back all my bubbly and happy side in me.I used to be very emotional and sad when YOU left bcuz It's YOU who spend most of your time with me when we were growing up into a teenager.I was lost and alone when you were away.we've both missed out a lot on each other for the past one year and being able to even have a glance on you means so much to me.We are running out of time and seeing you every single day just makes my day so bright and joyful.I'm gonna miss the pampering,attention,comfort,love,kindness,and basically everything that you've done for me for the past six years with you.It's crazy thinking how long our journey is going to be but we believe with love and affection,strength and strong will power we'll hopefully walk down the aisle together.*amen*.....You told me I was beautiful and even though a few people tell me that,I think you're the only one who really meant it.For you were the only one who really took the time to look =)I know when you leave,the distance will keep us apart but distance,no matter how far,can't change these feelings in my heart.We are forced to separate for some time, but sayang,don't be sad,for it's just a test of true love (: I wish you all the best in your future endeavours and I wish you well on all journeys you partake in life.Have a safe journey and I'll be waiting for you with my arms wide open okays?^^ I may not get to see you as often as I like.I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night but deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love and I can't let you go.Thank you for everything sweetheart :D

Love you yesterday,love you still,always have,always will =)

note:If you really love someone,put their name in a circle,not a heart!!

Because a heart can easily be broken but a circle goes on forever ^^

Open your heart.

You learn that life isn’t always fair and you don’t always get what you think you deserve and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment.You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of "God"......but merely a random act of fate.And you stop looking for guarantees because you’ve learned that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens,you’ll learn to deal with it....

In order to start,we must make a decision.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect.

It is this fragile thread that binds us to each other.

So I've made the switch to tumblr....

I'm using tumblr now to blog.
http://according2renee.tumblr.com/