To tell u the truth,I've juz been avoiding everything.

why do we chase after the impossibles when we have the possibles awaits us??why am I so stupid?why don't I take risk?I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytime I'm happy,something bad always happens.I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,but only seconds to destroy it.That is why I never seem to trust someone that quickly.Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again.So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.I wanna go back to when Santa did exist.When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed.When Disney World was the best place to be.When the only movies you could see were rated G.When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and your friends were the same.And every time you were sad or you had a bad day. You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay.I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter.When everyone always lives happily ever after.I'm just afraid of taking chances and I'm so lost right now.I don't even know what I want,what to do,what to say and where to go.I wanna get lost from my life sometimes,sit on the side and watch the world go by,I wanna get lost and I don't know why.I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now,so how can I be sure about anything? Most of the time I feel so awkward,you know,like I don't belong in my own skin,I get frustrated at everything,I could just scream and there's no reason for it,I just hate myself.