forget december.

Happy Friday and Happy Holidays to you all. Here's to a wonderfully relaxing weekend of peace and joy spent with family and friends. I'm sending you giant hug through the computer. Can you feel it? I'll be eating lots of sweets this weekend watching holiday movies. I seem to be in a much better mood today than I was at the beginning of the week, yayyy! Exams and assignments had been piling up like a stack of old newspaper for the past few weeks. uRGH... well, I'm glad I'm done and over it. So, cheers to my relaxing, fun-filled weekend : ) On a Friday morning, why not to blog? Ha.

I didn't ask for much next year. Not sure if it's because I'm not really into it or if because I'm getting older. Or because I know I won't get my Macbook so why even bother? (Haha kidding, I'm such a baby!) Whatever the case may be, I'm just happy to be surrounded by people who love me and care about me. When you really think about it, if you don't have that in your life, everything else becomes irrelevant.

With that being said, I hope you all have a verrrrrrry Merry Christmas and A Happy new year! And that you get to spend it with your loved ones too. Bring on 2012, i'm ready.

Not so glamorous after all.

I have been requested to write an article about modeling for a column in the school magazine. how do I go about it? blah blah blah........brainstorming...... and B-A-MMMM , people's perception about the modelling world got me inspired :))




I’m 5 feet 9 inches tall and in the modeling world, that's a shrimp. People keep telling me I'm tall but wait till you see my female model friends. They’re standing at an impressively 6 feet 1 inches tall = 185.42 centimeters! I had always had modeling in the back of my mind. People have always come up to me and said 'are you a model or have you ever thought about pursuing modeling?’. Despite what people keep telling me, I'd never thought about pursuing modelling myself now. I have friends from both genders would come up to me and ask ‘how to become a model?’. Alright you have great looks that can turn heads while you’re walking on public place and great portfolio but that is not enough at all. The model should possess strong will power and confidence to hunt for right opportunity with a determination to work harder and harder. You must be stronger from inside your attitudes, mannerism, communications skills, and patience can put you on the desired place in the industry. Never think that modeling is full of glamour, but if you look in to rationally it is not just glamour as it seems from outside. When you see a beautiful model wearing great smile, there is a lot of hard work behind it from the model itself to full fill the clients, photographers and creative people set objectives. Throughout the fashion week, I was doing back-to-back shows. Sounds glamorous? Well, it looks glamorous, but behind the scenes is chaos! Make up, off, then on, then off and on again, hair extensions glued-in, hair ironed, teased, poked, prodded - the constant preening takes its toll and there’s no time to zone out.

A little guidance to your first steps toward becoming one. “Well, I think I could be a model, but I’m too short/tall/fat/thin/ethnic/....” First, the bad news. Some types of modeling do have pretty rigorous requirements. For instance, runway fashion models need to be tall and preferably slender. If you’re not at least 5'7" or more, the odds of your getting work doing runway fashion are not good. There are exceptions – Kate Moss, for instance, is only 5'6". But exceptions do not disprove rules. Modern haute couture show-fashion is designed to look good on tall, slender models (although this is changing.) If you aren’t tall and slender, the clothes won’t look good on you. If the clothes don’t look good on you, the designers won’t want you to wear them. That’s life. It’s nothing personal. Now the good news. Runway fashion is a tiny, tiny fraction of all the modeling work in the world. Think about it: which do you see more often, pictures of Tyra Banks in a New York fashion show, or pictures of attractive people in everyday settings doing fairly ordinary things to try to get you to buy something or otherwise catch your interest? Commercial, print, casual and editorial work, let alone glamour and art photography, constantly require a huge number of interesting, attractive people of all shapes and sizes for modeling duties. And in today’s market-driven, targeted advertising world, every advertiser with a customer base – tall, short, fat, thin, ethnic, you name it – tries to appeal to its target demographic by using models who look like them, only maybe just a little more attractive.

Well, there is also a very ugly side of modelling. Models are constantly being told to lose weight or gain weight. They are also rejected a lot for jobs. If you can't handle REJECTIONS without taking it personal then modeling is not for you! Also, if you're actually doing some modeling, be careful of "agents," "photographers," "model scouts," whatever. Make sure you bring your mom or your friend with you. Watch out for the sickos out there. Never pay to be in a photo shoot! They should be paying you. If you're serious about becoming a model, then you might want to invest in a modeling class session. You will learn a lot from these, and you will network with the professional models that teach the classes, and the amateur models just like you. Just make sure the organization is licensed so that you don't waste your money. Beware of agency scams, they will usually ask for money up front. If you don't have the money for classes, there are a lot of books, shows, and mentors out there that will help you. When you go to auditions, be extremely careful. Don't go to auditions posted in the "Jobs" section of the news paper. In reality just start contacting legitimate agencies and go to their open calls. If you are what the market is looking for, they will give you a call back. Models carry themselves with an air of confidence, not an air of cockiness! Don't think you're better than everyone, don't get too wrapped up in yourself. Open your eyes to the world and find opportunities. Good Luck !

bits n pieces.

Oh life.
Brain.
Emotions and hormones.

pulling it all together...

Okay, chemical imbalance or not, we are all on a different playing field.
We ALL react to stress differently, we ALL handle life differently.
My journey has brought me to this.
You have to find what works best for you.
It's not about being weak and wanting to eliminate feelings.
Quite the contrary.
It's about finding a balance so that we CAN feel feelings,

rather than stay in one monstrous one for an extended period of time.

I've learned important lessons too.
I appreciate more the simple moments of life.
I have a deeper love and appreciation for those who have taken the time to

listen, pray, and still love me throughout it all.
I am more madly in love with my dude who has been unbelievably patient, loving, supportive and understanding through each and every icky moment.

We will never be free of emotions.

Or moods.

We are human.

Perfectly imperfect humans....

note : Well, it looks like the gears are turning and I could shortly be filmed for a reality TV show that could make it on the air. [ ..excited yet nervous..]

very odd dreams that are mostly riddled with fears

Some things about me that may be mildy amusing to you:

I have phobia sitting in speeding cars.

I'm afraid of heights.

I sleep with the lights on.

I do believe ghosts exist, but I have never seen one myself.

I have sweaty palms when i'm nervous.

My nickname when I was little was "Bin Bin biscuits".

I hate it when people touch my hair.

i hate overfriendly people. Annoying!

Fucking annoyed by girls pretending to be high maintenance sort of thing.WTF rite?

trashy biatches.

Girls Ogle at other girls. so darn annoying!

DISLIKE Girls Comparing themselves with other girls. (Deadly mistake)

I hate people Over boasting.

I am used to eating or sitting in a cafe alone, with or without friends.

I don't always go out with my cellphone and wallet.

I hate giving my cell phone number to strangers.. stalker much!

I hate girls pretending all nice in front and gossip or talk behind someone's back.

Dislike Guys who are very open about themselves.

I love ice-cream and nacho chips.

I hate facebook stalkers. Girls n guys 'adding back as a friend' non-stop, when you ignored their friend request like a million times... stalker much??!!!! and when you approved them... they don't even intro themselves... hmmm... asshole.

I hate it when you remove someone from your friend list in facebook and they keep ADDING n ADDING back.... Don't they get the point?? idiots man.

I hate friends or people asking me questions about ANYTHING whether it's about myself or random shit. Fuck! Can't I have some peace and privacy without you bunch asking me a hell of a lot of questions?

'm calm at the things I do.

I can feel the 'REALNESS' of someone as soon as they start to speak up.

I'm racist.

Everyone is a sinner. Don't bullshit me.

I hate fucking skinny stick girls talking about DIET and weight loss plan. idiots!

I don't fancy expensive stuff.

Shopaholic freaks is a pain in the ass.

I believe we will all go to hell.

I believe sex education should be implemented in primary schools.

I am sensitive to other needs.

I only believe in inner beauty... outer beauty is all bullshit. Come on man! Any Tom, Dick and Harry can get plastic surgery done and look drop dead gawjuz instantly.

I never put on make up on a normal daily basis.

I Don't follow fashion.

I Don't fancy branded clothes.... spoilt kids! Don't they have mercy for their parents who worked so hard to get those money? ass.

Our government is corrupted.

I hate wannabes

I don't eat scallop, oyster, siham and beef.

I hate half cooked meat.

Local fruits is my favourite.

I don't mind looking foolish in public.

I don't praise myself.

I don't copy in exams. I die on my own.

I don't wipe and comb my hair after bathing.

I study hard for exams.

Modeling was never something I see myself doing or pursuing in the future... I don't necessary love it or hate it. I'm just pushing my boundaries and see how far i can go into different field.


I walk out naked after bathing.

I'm cool Not wearing any undergarments while going out.

Black is my favourite color.

Pink color? hmmm depends lar.

I hate eating pills.

I don't waste my time looking at people's facebook photoAlbums. Maybe 5 picture or less and that's also to oblige someone/ friends...hahaha

I wish I can buy a gun...

Carrying handbags is such a burden.

I love spicy food.

I hate wasting money on movies unless its FREE!!

I'm super stingy

I cry everytime watching the less fortunate striving to live.

I hate wiping off eyeliner

I love being around studious people.

I hate my university.

I don't pray.

I don't make fake promises....action speaks louder than words.

I want to open my very own cupcakes or candies store.

I love watching cooking show... mum says i am obsessed!

I don't read blogs. lame

I write blogs when I feel like too.

I hate crowded places.

I have bad eyesight.

I'm neutral AT EVERYTHING I DO

I have bad temper but I control it

I don't like doing things most girls enjoy.. those girlish stuff makes me wanna barf!

I find it stupid for newbie couples going 'I love you forever n forever' and the next second they break up... Bastard.

Couples who celebrate monthly anniversary are stupid CUZ the next minute...they are both single...

I only believe in reality...The real world! No such thing as ONCE UPON A TIME for me. rubbish~!

Where I put up a ' Facelift' picture cuz I couldn't find a good picture....

The holidays were lovely...Eggs & biscuits were on the table every morning, there was always an abundance of Ice-cream in the freezer and "special" bread in the bread box. I've been so busy driving, cleaning, packing, traveling, working and doing coupley things that I've almost forgotten that this is the time I should be resting well before the new semester starts! "sighs"

Oh hell. I'm the person you don't want to fuck with, ever. She's hot headed. She screams from time to time and thank God my family members was born with good lungs- cause they are the only person brave enough to scream back. But....we all can burn and too often we burn the people we love the most, cause they're the only ones willing to reach out and touch the fire. We're all steaming, flames of ridiculous bursts of light that are both blinding and beautiful in the same glance. We can scream and disagree, but we are family. And you know how Malaysians feel about family....I'm done throwing a fit now. Thanks.

I have a feeling that it's the shitty one that stuck.
Not inspired. Not inspired. BLAH BLAH BLAH.
Still feel like reading?!

I need a new phone, a chill pill, a manicure and a pedicure, a new computer! So. I want nice things. There....I said it. I want to be able to buy unnecessary items. But more importantly, I want to be able to LIVE. Live my life, cross off lists, live bountifully not BLEAKLY.

Time is escaping me. Completely running through my fingertips like powdered sugar. MMM....sugar.

Time is running away from me like I'm a butcher knife wielding mad man, with it's heels on fire. Just for today, I don't want TIME to control me.

I want to be in the time that I have so that I don't wonder where it went when it's gone.

No watches, no deadlines.

I want to let go of the "have-to-dos" and tell everything to just SLOW DOWN.....or wait for me.

I want time to finish my milk, to read my book, to stay in bed with my teddy.

To check off everything on my list.

to To get there without feeling rushed.

To walk in the grass.

To make new friends.

TO DO IT ALL.

To research and learn.

To write and let creativity come naturally.

To decide without pressure.

To eat meals in courses.

To make a cheesecake.

To enjoy the process instead of getting intimidated by it.

To digest and to meditate.

To BREATHE.

Annnnnd....

to pluck my eyebrows in a magnifying mirror.

note: Life throws you plans better than you imagined for yourself when you aren't expecting it.

i'm not sure what to post about today

{one} have you ever been stuck in an elevator?
thank god no!

{two} have you ever ridden on an elephant?
ummmm, no!

{three} have you ever met a well known celebrity?
South Korean pop and R&B singer, RAIN :)

{four} do you have any food allergies?
Peanuts

{five} do you know how to sew?
A lil bit.

{six} did you get an allowance when you were young?
RM1

{seven} how often do you fill up your gas tank?
hmmm....ask my mum!

{eight} have you ever been stung by a jelly fish?
no, i hate swimming in yucky water!

{nine} have you ever been robbed?
i really don't want to jinx myself on this one;)

{ten} what is the worst haircut you’ve ever had?
when i was young, my sister cut my hair super short and it was hideous && ugly!



- So, I just got a call from Penang yesterday...regarding a competition that I randomly participated and I'm shortlisted as one of the semi finalist but unfortunately, I got another better offer and somehow the dates clashes so...I gotta choose only ONE...hmmmm....
- Sher's been out of the country for over 2 years and I have been doing okay. Right this minute, I am literally waiting for him to go online. Waiting so I could talk to my best friend, my partner, my leader, my better half. Waiting so I could last another day without him here. Waiting so my love tank can be refilled. And when he does, I’ll still be waiting. Waiting for him to come home : ) I miss you niuk.

what are you...right or left? :)

Left brain: I am the left brain. I am a scientist. A mathematician. I love the familiar. I categorize. I am accurate. Linear. Analytical. Strategic. I am practical. Always in control. A master of words and language. Realistic. I calculate equations and play with numbers. I am order. I am logic. I know exactly who I am.

Right brain: I am the right brain. I am creativity. A free spirit. I am passion. Yearning. Sensuality. I am the sound of roaring laughter. I am taste. The feeling of sand beneath bare feet. I am movement. Vivid colors. I am the urge to paint on an empty canvas. I am boundless imagination. Art. Poetry. I sense. I feel. I am everything I wanted to be.

I hope y’all been having a grrrr-reat week (:

Sorry I haven’t been updating for quite awhile. I’ve been busy with my studies. Done with another photo-shooting session. Catalogue shooting session around the corner. Looking forward for a shooting session with the established malaysian fashion designer with over 20 years of experience the the fashion industry :)) plus a Photo shooting with the girls would be fun....can't wait =) Few slots are opens up for fashion shooting too. Not forgetting my sweethearts!! we will be having a reunion in KL real soon! Missing you girls so much =) have a safe flight babes muakssss!

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Since I’ve got this freakishly weird urge to blog but my brain refuses to cooperate with me. So yeah, here goes nothing….. ABC About You Questions:

A – Available: Nope :)

B – BIRTHDAY: 4th March
C – CRUSHING ON: Taylor lautner

D – DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Water!
E – EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: My friends

F – FAVORITE SONG: Currently, 'FOR YOU I WILL by Teddy Geiger'

G – GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: BOTH .... i have a sweet tooth =)
H – HOMETOWN: Malacca!
I- IN LOVE WITH: Food

J – JUGGLE: Nope :/
K – KILLED SOMEONE: Of course not!
L – LONGEST CAR RIDE: From Melaka to Penang.

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Oreos (:
N – NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 3

O – ONE WISH: to be the wealthiest person on earth

P – PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Mom!
R – REASON TO SMILE: Delicious food
S- SONG YOU LAST HEARD: OMG by Usher

T – TIME YOU WOKE UP: 9 AM
U – UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: *winks*
V – VEGETABLE(S): Broccoli. Carrots. Cucumber.
W – WORST HABIT: I need ice cream to make me happy

X – X-RAYS YOU’VE HAD: My gums.

Y – YOYOS ARE: FUN!
Z – ZODIAC SIGN: Pisces

P.S blogging serves as a place to keep and share my memories. I'm not witty or funny or hardly interesting, but thanks to you all for always stopping by to read... =)))

I have a terrible habit of looking at tiny problems and making them feel unsurmountable. Now, however, I intend to change this entirely. I want to work harder at looking at things from different perspectives and trying to see the positive aspects of everything. I know this isn't the easiest thing in the world to do, but if you never try you'll never know. They say it takes 60 days to kick an old habit or make a new one. So hopefully, soon .... I have a bit of a rebirth myself.
May God bless us all with love, joy, peace and success =))

What to pack in your model case?

OK, you're off to a model photo shoot. But, did you remember to pack your bag? Did you put everything you need in it? What you bring to your model photo session will depend upon whether this is your first shoot for a portfolio or a paying job. If you are shooting for an agent or client, he will tell you what to bring but you still need to carry basics in case of changes in hair, makeup, etc... Here are the essentials for your wardrobe. P.S. some of the clothing listed here will be provided if this is a model shoot for a client.

• Casual - blue jeans, sports & knit tops, button up tops, shorts, blue jeans, etc.
  


• Business Suit - for a different look



• Sports (exercise, uniforms, shorts, etc.) - If you plan to do some sports modeling



• Lingerie - If you plan to enter the lingerie market



• Swim wear - needs to be a bikini that really flatters you



• Any props like hats, neckties, men's shirts, jackets, etc.
  


• G-string & bra in flesh tone color - This is to eliminate lines that show under clothing



• Hose/nylons in an assortment of colors



• Socks in different colors including black and white
  


• Bring several different bras including at least one push-up and one in flesh tone color



• A robe to wear between changes during the photo session



• Bring a scarf to wear when changing to help keep makeup off client's and your clothing

Accessories - You've got to have something to compliment the clothes, right..
Along with each outfit, try to bring accessories which will accent or match the outfit. Keep accessories simple.

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  Assortment of necklaces Earrings


• Bracelets



• Choker (these are popular at the time of this writing)
  


• Wristwatch - You normally wouldn't wear a watch unless you are doing a photo where you will be looking at the time.

Shoes, Shoes, Shoes!!!!

As with accessories, shoes should match or accent the outfit. But, you can also think outside the box on the subject of footwear. For example; High heels have a totally different look with jeans or swim wear than with an evening dress

• Dress shoes - Bring several different pairs



• High heels - Also an assortment


• Boots or high heel boots


• Sandal
  

Don't forget about the hair!!!
Below are some items you'll need for your hair (or hair removal)

• An assortment of combs and hairbrushes
  


• Straightener



• A couple of headbands



• Shaving cream and a couple of sharp razors



• Anything else you use for hair care

When coming to the model shoot, I would suggest leaving the hair fairly natural with very little (if any) hairspray.....

Makeup and facial
Even if your shoot involves a make-up artist, you still may want to pack the following cuz make-up fades as time passes and sometimes we are requested to put on our own foundation base bcuz of the the time issue and not enough helping hand..

Your complete makeup kit along with a

• mirror
  


• A moisturizer



• Cottonballs and swabs Lip balm
  


• Vaseline



• A good skin cleanser



• Several different shades of lip color (be sure to bring some solid colors)
  

Nails, finger that is.

• Your complete manicure kit



• Nail polish with neutral color
  


• Remover kit for nail polish

A nice manicure wilreally enhance your model photos, especially images where your hand is near your face in close-ups so pay particular attention to your nails. Don't put on so bright colours :)))

Whatever the eyes see & the heart feels :))

“Love’s involved with
spending time together,
but spending time apart,
can lead to loving even more.”
— Tyler Hawkins, Remember Me

Just sharing :))))

Different people have different opinions on how to strut the catwalk but what's actually the right way to do a catwalk?hmmmm..... I've seen and have been taught by tonnes of different individuals on how to strut the runway but each & everyone of them has different styles/technique of catwalking and they always claim that their walk is the right one but however, when you master one's catwalk, the other individual would say its incorrect . 'Ball of confusion i tell you'....hahaha.... Anyway,..... professionalism wise....., the walk we should/want to master would be the international catwalk. It's very Clean Cut. Nothing more, nothing less. It sounds simple but many failed to master because these days models are prone to crazy poses or hand gestures at the end of the runway. besides that, too much hips and arms swinging , slouching , blur faces , protruding lips, no eye contact,etc etc.... would be an additional disaster... YES it isn't wrong but would you rather be listed as the 'shopping mall model' or the experience one? also, most individuals whom can barely master the clean cut walk are trying and implying those crazy moves and turns into their catwalk... see oso pek chek and girls actually cried because it was so hard to break out from their comfort zone. but at the end of the day, it depends on what show you are doing, the location, choreographer, client, outfits and etc... but if you were to attend any kinda of casting & you are required to do a catwalk, clean cut catwalk is the one you should strut.

pictures of clean cut walk: most of the time, no posing required at the end of the runway

and no smiling too...

the aboves : clean cut walk loOK much nicer rite?

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ANYWAYS....,

Oh man! I miss them !!

Above : My sayang!

- I remembered the days where you would take me out to eat and

shop with your friends.........

and that one moment where you cancelled your flight and came down to Malacca to surprise me...Argh...I love you!! The funny moments we had was definitely the microwave egg explosion happenned to our friend and the moment where people thought we were lesbian in the club plus the attention she gets from the crowd in the club was crazy 'she's standing on the dance floor DANCING making guys & girls feeling like a midget!!!' she's 6 feet btw.. haha... she's a diva on the runway i tell you but a sweetie pie in person :)

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above : My sayang too!!

- She makes me laugh a lot! I remembered that one moment where she was coughing non-stop and I told her to get a mask cuz I was afraid to go near her & she wore the mask + sunglasses = looking like michael jackson walking in the shopping mall. haha... She loves eating so much and each time we go mamak, she would order that same old MAGGI GORENG and she refuse to share it with anyone!hahahaha

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above : baby lex!!


- He was always afraid of me cuz I would steal his french fries and junk food.He's super smart for a kid and fyi he models kids clothing! so cute i tell you... I always ask him to diet and he admits he has too... hahaha adorable eh??

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Above : My darling!

- Sot i miss you a lot :(((( The one moment I remembered the most was the time I always borrowed your clothes, accessories, shoes...cuz she had so many beautiful stuff in the closet and I felt like having it ALL! hahaha... There was one moment were she woke up feeling so hot and headache cuz my arm was resting on top of her head and she knows I'm super hygienic and a germ exterminator! She doesn't dare sitting on my bed cuz she knows i will scream like a witch..hahaha...She's rarely smiles and looks super fierce when you first saw her but she's actually a very shy person... She has the style and also the moves on the runway.Her signature walk is her thing! she's a supermodel n hope YOU make it big in overseas!

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Above: International supermodel , Angie

- The one moments that brought me to tears was the tiMe we had the ' inner feelings talk'.

Funny moments was definitely the time we were camwhoring and acting cute...haha...

Sweet moments was when she gave a hanDmade card & sweets in it :)))) loveeee!

She takes good editorial pictures and appeared in magazines like female, FHM M'sia&Indonesia , Asteliear Beaute , New tide and many more....

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above : My sayang!

- She laughs when I laugh... hahahahaha! She's only 18 but she's 6 feet 1 :))

She loves my cooking which I appreciate it a lot and my sayang is super very kind in borrowing her stuff! She loves BOOST 'a drink' a lot and has tonnes of killer heels at her age! hahaha... I miss you & I shall see you soon babe! cant wait :))))

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above: This chic loves my poached eggs and she would ask me to cook for her from time to time...hahaha... she can tell really funny stories i tell you! and She has one smoking body :))

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I remembered that one moment where we went to mamak and chat till the shop closes! and also dance like crazy hot chics on the dance floor .... haha.. she's so sweet in person and also a hardworking one :)))

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-Last but not least , Moogs! He's hairstyle is so cool and I remembered that one moment where we were waiting under the hot sun and you said you were going to MELT! hahaha so funny!!!
His signature pose would be the 'hunch back'!! hahaha and he's a very sweet & nice person too :)))

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note: Good Friends is what can make life enjoyable and worthwhile. Friendship is something sweet and something special that gives life that extra kick. Keep in touch : D

saw this and just thought of sharing it =))

It's either you understand or you don't. That simple.

• 
  My girlfriend invited me to her house, I found her sister alone in the house, she was unbelievably sexy, she whispered in my ear, "i have feelings for you, shall we have sex" , I immediately turned around and walked to the front door to go to my car, I found my girlfriend standing there, she hugged me and said: "you've won my trust"... Moral of the story: always keep your condoms in the car.

• ...PERIODS SUCK...Peeing in the morning after you wake up andthe toilet looks like a bowl of Hawaiian Punch.

• I'm wearing my BEST butt jeans, my cutest shirt, my hair looks amazing, and no matter where i go looking like this, NO hot guys are there.I'm at Wal*Mart, hair tied up in a bun, no makeup, sweat pants,old t-shirt with paint and holes in it, and slippers. and every time I turn around, HOT GUYS EVERYWHERE.freakkin lovely.

• KID: Dad, can you write in the dark?FATHER: I think so. What do you want me to write?KID: Your name on this report card.

• “BOYS ARE LIKE ONIONS" ..THEY ADD TASTE AND SPICE IN GIRLS LIVES.. BUT JUST LIKE ONIONS, THEY MAKE GIRLS CRY TOO......A REAL MAN is not defined by how many girlfriends he had, instead, It’s how many girls cried when he said, “No, I’m taken and I love her.”

• Advantages Of Being A Women:

1. We got off the Titanic first.

2. Taxis stop for us.

3. Men die earlier, so we get to cash in on the life insurance.

4. We don't look like a frog in a blender when we're dancing.

5. We can hug our friends without wondering if she's gay.

6. We can hug our friends without wondering if we're gay.

7. We don't have to fart to amuse ourselves.

8. We can congratulate our team-mate without touching her butt.

9. We have the ability to dress ourselves.

10. We have enough sense to realize that the easiest way to get out of being lost is to ask for directions.

• Honey, your skirt is so high up it's a belt. Your hair is so bright it hurts my eyes. Your skin is so orange you look like you were an unfortunate victim of an explosion at an orange juice factory. Your eyes have so much make up on them you look like a raccoon. Who are you trying to impress, a blind man?

• Today I was approached by a homeless man who asked if i had any changeI only had two dimes, but i gave it to him anyways. As i watched him walk away, he put the dimes in someone's expired parking meterSomeone who can't afford to feed himself but helps others.

• *Watching t.v**A sex scene comes on**Mom walks in*Mom:What are you watching?!?!?!?!You: A SHOW THAT WAS INNOCENT BEFORE YOU WALKED IN!!!!

Nope, I haven't abandoned the blog....

Time passes by fast when I'm busy... suddenly I glance up and it's almost been weeks since I've posted. I am so sorry that I have been MIA. My life has been hectic times a billion lately. Let me give you a recap....

I'm giving myself a huge break right now cuz i'm physically, mentally and emotionally drained .... fashion shows was a successed and gosh, more than 10 fashion shows completed and several photoshooting...how exhausting is tat???!! so, i've postponed all shootings & etc. cuz my whole body screams 'STOP'! seriously...

So, next month i have to catch up with all the postponed shootings and runways...

I adore doing designers fashion show cuz everything is so professional and the design of each outfit is high fashion couture and all so pretty =))) The Fashion Showcase all the famous Malaysian designers from Khoon Hooi, Edric Ong , Zang Toi , Dominique , and many more... I love Melinda Looi's design so much and she has her own collection of designed outfits in Pavilion, KL which cost up to RM9000.... only the rich and famous can afford it man.... Most of her designs are long gowns with Extravagant Trains and its aint easy to strut down the runway with those outfits and not forgetting a pair of killer heels some more....fuh!! *wipe sweat off* hahahahaha

dammit lar...malacca only offers unpaid fantasy/bridal/hair show!who does things for free i dun get it???everything nowadays is about the money, money, money!!! what I dislike most is fantasy makeup show... hideous looking makeup and hairdo and worst of all, they DON'T pay those models at all...wtf rite?? let them sit there for hours, destroying your face and hair & then, do a FREE show for them in those hideous obscene outfit in public...Ugly stuff man... I have friends who does fashion show at RM1000 and as low as RM400 ... SEE, this is what i call worth doing lar....

lately, i'm trying to break into the commercial industry and also print ads/billboards.... cuz big bucks comes from commercials and print ads $$$$$$ so hell yea...I wil be heading back to KL next month and I've been having a great time at parties in KL and gosh....they throw the hottest parties!! love love love it.... haiz.... I miss my supermodel chics so muchie!they are such great fun and they make me laugh like a maniac i tell you!! looking forward to see them in few weeks time =))))) Ntg much about university cuz this semester only 2 subjects and yea boring as usual ....also, i've been really inactive in sports cuz my whole system is temporarily dead. hahahaha.... Okay, that's all for today. I'll write more next time....I promise. So until further notice, go about your blogging business. And don't miss me too much.

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Sometimes we drive each other nuts, sometimes we laugh like crazy, sometimes we're the silliest people ever and MOST TIMES we use our own made up words. He is my best friend, my partner in crime and the person who knows the most about me. Even when he's driving me crazy I have to admit I'm pretty lucky to call him mine :))))

harlo

been super busy lately and as usual super malas nak blogging but have to update once in awhile lar or else my blog is dead....haha
this friday is APRIL FOOLS day and yeap one month has flown by again....


Tiz saturday my schedule is packed with events and its hectic i tell ya cuz i'll be strutting down the runway with custom made designer clothing from :

1. MODA [ Malaysian Official Designers Association ]
2. BDA [ Bumiputra Designers Association ]
3. YODA [ Young Designers Arena---- establishes in a fashion industries to develop and grow the fashion scene in Malaysia among young and talented fashion designers ]
4. IFF
5. Clothes made from paper designed by a group of designers in regarding of the 'recycling campaign'

so all in all i'll be having 5 designers shows in a day and yes it's hectic! done tonnes of fitting with the rest of the caucasian male n female models plus african models and gosh the russian and saudi arabia models are hot....!! hahaha.....



nak tido now cuz esok n the day after tomoro i'm very busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy lar.... hahahaha



my blogging skills sucks BIGTIME!sowieeeeeeeee..

let me start this off by saying that I AM TERRIBLE AT updating blogs!

well friends..

it has been a while..

a l o o o o o o n g w h i l e.....

AND..a lot has changed in this oofa life since i last saw ya..
my blog fog head has been on overdrive

so far this year and my blogging skills

seem to be a massive fail oh so recently...!!

After a nice, long break from the blogging world,

I finally decided it's time to start writing again.

I've had a lot of things that needed my attention and focus,

so I chose to give the blog a bit of a rest

so I could put all my energy where it really needed to be....

LIKE...

• Making sure i've completed all my assignments and chores...
• Cooking up some delicious goodness in the kitchen...
• studying like a fool
• Working, working, working. Have I mentioned I've been working my butt off?
• enjoying my one-on-one time with him on the internet

So, I'm back. Hopefully on a more regular basis.

can you believe it's Friday already?!

I'm looking forward for KL's fashion week....

I just adore runway shows.

probably 40% more than photoshoots.

"strap on stunning heels and strut down the runway"

woots woots!!!

the chaos backstage makes you have butterflies in your stomach.

Lately i just did an Ads shooting in this enormous studio in KL.

it's kinda cool cuz I had to change my poses like a 100 times for that 10 minutes shoot.

close-up shot is still my favourite cuz it just focuses on the facial expression and ntg else....

sweeeeeet niblets!!

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I went way out of my comfort zone cuz the pictures taken below is more to the commercial side which is a different side of me cuz I often feel more comfortable with editorial shooting. but it's worth a TRY!lol

Miss Malaysia World 2011...should i or shouldnt i??urghh there's just too many subjects next semester and i'm confident that assignments will piling up like CRAZY next sem!hmmm still considering lar..... anyways, I got an A for my maths which is awesome...A for workplace communication which is even more awesome cuz from the beginning of the semester I thought I was going to fail tat subject cuz the lecturer always cancel class >< " ...... also an A for co-cu subject and I was surprised cuz I did screwed up during few lessons...hahaha i was playing the whole time during training tho!!B+ for macro economics??wth... everyone was complaining that we were all going to fail cuz we can barely hear what the lecture was mumbling and he barely teaches us... amen for tat!! hahahaha...... but screw finance paper tho! tough like shit!!! hahahaha

note: I have amazing people in my life,

and

I can't imagine going a day without talking to them in some way.

last but not least i need tonnes of new clothes...!

wonder what's underneath?

once in a while we pass by a super drop dead gorgeous chic strolling down the mall and we're amazed by her beauty and flawless skin.guys especially!hahaha....they will get so caught up by her beauty and her looks.I'm sure many of us have seen tonnes stunning pictures of this beautiful girls in facebook,taiwan show n google images....[with super huge eyes and dollface]!but have u ever wonder how they look like in person without make up?haha after seeing this pictures,we will definitely want them to wear make up for the rest of their lives.come on....they totally don't look a like at all with the before and after make up process!super duper different"the dark circles,bad skin,eye bags,tiny eyes,square face...."gosh!that's why don't judge a book by its cover guys...haha...beauty is from within...outer beauty is just temporary and its all covered up by tonnes of chemicals which in long run destroys n ruins our face..LESS IS MORE i shall say...to sum up,make up is just for special occasion or parties.Let your face breathe as much as it could...of course without make up some girls will feel neglected by the guys and they can't seem to stop 'traffic' but go slow on it...but i've seen natural pretty face....they look much better without make up and once they put it on...hmmm they're just prettier without it on...however....there is some girls whom is not so pretty and then when they put make up on,gosh their face are to die for!prepare to get freak out cuz you would.now you know how all those pretty baby face get their wow factor?simple.more foundation,super long eye lash and lots of eyeliner and blusher!!haha

P.S:women should thank make-up for not ruining their everyday image

Men, stop eating those rotten apples! :0)

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree =)

what's next?

I kinda feel like I've wasted my opportunity for not representing Malaysia to compete at the largest independent beauty and talent showcase in Asia Pacific which will be held in KOREA in JUNE!yes korea *the place that many korea's diehard fans wishes to go*....haizz.....There will be over 70 countries competing for the title and its awesome to get to know many new people and gaining tremendous experience from this pageant. However, school is more important lar... I wouldn't want to skip lecture class for 3 weeks right? So terpaksa reject lor... Lately, I've missed out tonnes of opportunities from great modeling agencies in KL, and several photoshoot in KL itself due to my final examinations,CNY and boyfriend's homecoming. Studying and taking modeling many steps further is not an easy combination because BOTH needs a lot of time and effort. So yea..... i'll take it easy for now and when I got time... i'll push myself further... For now , I'll study hard, eat hard, sleep hard and try to find time for fashion shows and photoshoots. Best of all, Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp and eattt!

8 years and still counting =)

Happy Valentine’s Day Sweetheart ♥!

I love you all through February, not just on Valentine's Day. I knew right from the start....we had a very special bond. Our time together is a gift. You’re interesting, warm and fun! and when I need to talk and share, I'll run straight to You. We have no reason to pretend because we know each other so well from our heads to our toes... I’m thankful that you’re in my life =) Although we won't be celebrating Valentine's Day for many many years, it's okay cuz today is just another ordinary day. Thanks for trying your very best to give me everything I ever wanted. Just to have you by my side for one minute and give you a hug is all I would wish for now cuz i'm missing you so very much already.

One more day without you is one more day closer to being with you.

In a blink of an eye, 3 weeks hast past without me even realizing it because I was having so much fun, laughter and craziness with him. It gets emotional knowing that he will be heading back to Moscow by this end of the week. haizzzzz........Goodbye seems so easy when I am saying it to others but it never gets easy when I have to say it to You. You coming home for this winter break was definitely the best valentine's present in advance I could ever received. it Looks like you will be leaving a day before valentine's day and we will both be having romantic candle light dinner through the webcam....haiz very poor thing but it's good enough because the few hours I spend with you....are worth the thousand hours I spend without you. I'm going to miss you like madness. no doubt. In this short period of time, we have tried to do as much fun stuff as we can possibly do together before goodbyes approaches AGAIN. We played tennis cause I love love LOVEE outdoor sports but non share the same interest as me. we played our very first archery game together. We headed to the movies after many many many months not stepping into the cinema. We jalan-jalan cari makan and we are both food lovers. We have great passion about good food and he claims that I can become a great food critic cuz I definitely have something to say *good and bad* about a particular food that I put into my mouth. hahahaha..... Today we headed to this to beautiful place. Blue skies, cool breeze, sun filtering through the trees....sweeeeeeeeeet! Not forgetting SHOPPING!almost everyday..... When you leave liau, things around here will surely be very quiet and No fun =( I will surely have dreams about you almost every nite and waking up is the worst part all the time because realizing that it was just part of a dream... Sometimes I miss you so much, I just want to rip you out of my dreams and hug you!!! Like how you wish I could be in Moscow with you....., How I wish I could be there with you too, but distance has kept us apart. Apart physically, but in spirit, you are always in my heart. No doubt. We have grown spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally, socially, and other life goals. Us From kiddos to young adults who wants and dreamss of making big bucks in the future....From lil teenagers who first laid eyes on each other and fell in love at first sight till we are Not afraid to act SILLY in front of each other.

Its sickening that so many people frequently asked us both this few similar questions:

"Don't you guys get bored of each other?" ,

"Why waste each others time when you guys are miles apart from each other?" , "

What's your secret ?",

"You still so young, why so serious?" ,

"Haiyor long way to go some more lar, Go have fun la!"

What the wrong with you guys lar??? Why should someone keep changing partners like changing underwear?? Super cheapskate man those girls or guys who frequently change partners and they think highly about themselves..They feel proud that they can tackle this person that person ....Zzzzzzz.... When you accept someone as your partner.....make sure you analyze the person from HEAD-to-Toe first before jumpping into a relationship because we want to make sure that ONE person that we chose to be with is the man or woman of our lives eternity. Because First love is always the most precious one. Not the second or third. screw all those stupid ridiculous questions lar because it's our lives AND not yours! thank you. This is human nature lar... They macam bosong jer when seeing other people happy. They just want to crush you down and when you break down.... then this humans pula act caring...Wtf?

I can't wait to see you tomorrow for the last time and I'm gonna make sure its going to be a great farewell.... Feel so emo thinking about us chatting thru the four box computer screen till midnights and it's tough shit cuz we can't convey true emotions and feelings to one another.... I just want everyday to pass by quickly so I can see you again =(

senyour,

Wherever you go, whatever you do, you know I love you ... from my heart I really do. I will be waiting, always. Whatever it takes, whatever's at stake, you know I'll be right here, right here ... always waiting for you. Time may take us apart, that's true, but I will always be there for you no matter the miles between.

Yours sincerely,

PIG